This past 15 months have brought many twists and turns in my life. I gradutated from College in May of 2010 and for Fairbanks, Alaska soon after. The summer was simply amazing, I grew, matured and learned so much. I was stretch with being away from the man I was engaged to and when things started falling apart mid summer I knew that I had to come home. I came home and returned to Canyonview to do some seeking God and some hard work. A few weeks later, I broke of my relationship with Winston and struggled to find myself again and decided to stay at Canyonview. It was a rough few months full of many tears, and anger.Yet it brought me to a place where I needed to be. Completely broken and searching. During those months I focused on my horsemanship, my work and getting my self healthy again. November brought news that I needed and that was that Winston had gotten married before I had broken off the relationship. It left me devestated, yet it allowed me to move on.
I started praying immediately that God would bring a future spouse in to my life that I would be able to love and be loved. Someone that would treat me right and know what I was still healing. Just over 2 months later, God brought a very smart, very hansome, motorcycle riding, Aeronautical engineer into my life, named Aaron. I laughed for the first time in months and was able to talk about life. I let him know that I was still healing from a rough relationship and he was willing to wait and give me some space.
We started talking andd seeing each other weekly and I began falling for him hard. Last summer I went back to Alaska with the thought that i would be there all year but mid summer I felt that God was asking me to return back home because of some changes that were going on at Li-Wa. Although it was extremely tought to go home, it has been a good for me to mature further and to do some problem solving. I started working back at camp, searching for jobs. It hasnt been easy but it is life. I am learning to use my resources to get to ride and make a trip down to Canyonview almost every month for some riding and extended learning.
Lately I have been going down to see Aaron a few weekends a month. I have gotten to spend quality time with him, his family and his nieces. I feel like I know him better then I have known anyone in my life. I am truly blessed by him. He protects me, encourages me and wants me to accomplish my dreams, even when it means that i might have to leave for a while. I am still looking for options and wondering what is going on. I don't want to leave but I know that I must accomplish my dreams. If you are reading this please pray for me. I am trying to looking into different ideas but really dont know what to do.It has been 11 months since Aaron and I have Started dating. It has been an amazing experience, yet tough and rewarding. We have over come differences and grown together. I am excited to seee how the next year will go and how much we will both grow...
